Category Archives: Choose Life: Honest Conversations

Fat Fridays: The End of an Interesting Year – Thank you, 2021 – 31.12.2021

This year has been the bomb, the explosion, the implosion and constant repair. I’ve cried a thousand times, maybe less than a hundred, I don’t know exactly, but I do care. This year has challenged me to forgive and mean it simultaneously. To stop saying things for the sake of saying something, stop saying, ‘yes,’Continue reading “Fat Fridays: The End of an Interesting Year – Thank you, 2021 – 31.12.2021”

Fat Fridays: What Fatso Heard? – 24.12.2021

What Fatso Heard? I’m not a ‘fan’ or a ‘traditional follower’ of Christmas! However, it is important to help those who are less fortunate than yourself. This help does not have to be financial; handing them cash into their hands. It could be signposting them to professional/charitable organisations or vice Versa. My point is thatContinue reading “Fat Fridays: What Fatso Heard? – 24.12.2021”

Fat Fridays: What to Eat? What to Do? – 17.12.2021

Fat Fridays:  What to eat? What to do? Ah! The festive season is in full force! It’s the season to fain a few pounds and not be judged harshly because tis the season. What! How can this be normal? Well, society has normalised it! ‘Roll up, roll up, come and feast your eyes on this!Continue reading “Fat Fridays: What to Eat? What to Do? – 17.12.2021”

Fat Fridays: How About Houmous? 10.12.2021

How About Houmous? I was out at an event the other night that had NO veggie options for me to enjoy. Everything contained meat! I asked the hose for any vegetarian options; she advised, ‘whatever is out, is out.’ Of course, I was made to feel bad for asking, like asking is a crime, andContinue reading “Fat Fridays: How About Houmous? 10.12.2021”

Fat Fridays: Overtired – 26.11.2021       

I struggle with saying ‘no’ to people when they ask me to do things, ‘favours!’ it’s always the same people, needing some form of support: Financially Physically Emotionally My answer is always YES! Even when time does not permit. Right now, I’m exhausted! Some people don’t even ask; they send a demand via a text,Continue reading “Fat Fridays: Overtired – 26.11.2021       “

Labels! Air Printed and Un-stick-able

A person going through emotional trauma slid into my DMs with a bad attitude and negative energy. They tried to shame my appearance and devalue my self-worth. My reaction was to delete the messages – they mean nothing to me. In a world where we have witnessed first-hand how trolling can push someone to commitContinue reading “Labels! Air Printed and Un-stick-able”

Fat Fridays: The Delusion of Support – 19.11.2021

The Delusion of Support Often I have fallen for the words of those around me, ‘I’m here to support you if you need me.’ I have trusted those words to be true. Only, on the rare occasion where I reach out for support – they look perplexed and move on to discuss a topic aboutContinue reading “Fat Fridays: The Delusion of Support – 19.11.2021”

Fat Fridays: My OCD and Me! 05.11.2021

Fat Fridays – My OCD and Me – 05.11.2021 A few months ago, I shared with you all that I had been diagnosed with OCD. Which mainly consists of checking things over and over again. I hadn’t shared that sometimes my mind latches onto something and then goes high-speed with mind-mapping scenarios about that thing.Continue reading “Fat Fridays: My OCD and Me! 05.11.2021”

Fat Fridays: Motivation to Run During Autumnal Days – 15.10.2021

Fat Fridays: Motivation to Run During Autumnal Days – 15.10.2021 Problem It is now Autumn, and I feel anxious about training outside. My thoughts consume me, and I create excuses and stay inside. Why do I do this? Because my fear of people looking at me in disgust rises, and I can’t breathe – IContinue reading “Fat Fridays: Motivation to Run During Autumnal Days – 15.10.2021”

Fat Fridays: Pandemic Pounds – 24.09.2021

Fat Fridays – Pandemic Pounds – 24.09.2021 Before I have never experienced a pandemic before. Today I had gained a few pounds during the thick of the pandemic (2020) it wasn’t hard to do. The UK Government set laws that advised we must stay indoors. Working hours were reduced, baking commenced and takeaway became aContinue reading “Fat Fridays: Pandemic Pounds – 24.09.2021”

To Unwind – 18.09.2021

Recently I purchased the Vanilla Almond Frosting Yankee Candle from Tesco. I must say that the fragrance is delightful! I found peace through listening to the sounds of the vacuum cleaner and the warm hum from the tumble-dryer. Then drifted into a sweet daydream, where the streets were made of sweet doughts and the rainContinue reading “To Unwind – 18.09.2021”

Fat Fridays: Hair Down 17.09.2021

Fat Fridays – Hair Down 17.09.2021 Before In the past, I would avoid social events as much as possible. I mean, the thought of having to find something that will fit and hide my fat, was extremely challenging, especially for a woman trying to remain invisible. I would always wonder what would it be like?Continue reading “Fat Fridays: Hair Down 17.09.2021”

Fat Fridays: I’ve Eaten A Lot this Week – 03.09.2021

Fat Fridays: I’ve eaten a lot this week. Past When going through mental constraints I would turn to food. It never made me feel better, it just allowed me to temporarily forget about the shit that was clogging up my mind. In addition to my actions, others would apologise to me and present food withContinue reading “Fat Fridays: I’ve Eaten A Lot this Week – 03.09.2021”

 Fat Fridays – Remember that Feelings are Temporary! 27.08.2021

 Fat Fridays – Remember that Feelings are Temporary! 27.08.2021 Before Whenever I would experience emotional turmoil, I would brood on the feelings for days, weeks and sometimes even months at a time. I didn’t care much about finding solutions to my problems or even trying anything to ease the pain. Instead, I would eat junkContinue reading ” Fat Fridays – Remember that Feelings are Temporary! 27.08.2021″

Fat Fridays: 5.5lbs Lost

 Fat Fridays – 5.5lbs Lost Before While I wanted to lose weight and be a thinner woman, while still eating the same amount of crap. I had never really taken the time out to work on those goals. I mean, I used to order two burger meals from McDonald’s, making them large and then scoffingContinue reading “Fat Fridays: 5.5lbs Lost”

Fat Fridays: Finding Balance with your Plant-Based Diet 13.08.2021

Fat Fridays – Finding Balance with your Plant-Based Diet Before I never had balance in my diet. I ate what I thought I needed. I ate what I knew I wanted and did not consider the consequences of my actions or the fact that I never knew what I was eating. I mean, I wouldContinue reading “Fat Fridays: Finding Balance with your Plant-Based Diet 13.08.2021”

Fat Fridays: Forgiveness 06.08.2021

Fat Fridays – Forgiveness 06.08.2021 Before Those that hurt me, I allowed them to continue, whether that be name-calling, mocking my appearance and 9/10 I agreed with them. ‘You’re so fat!’ ‘You look ugly.’ ‘Your ass is massive!’ ‘Your face is so dark. Black and ugly.’ ‘Look at your ugly duck lips.’ Sure, I wouldContinue reading “Fat Fridays: Forgiveness 06.08.2021”