This year, I have been through the motions, extreme highs and deep lows, with hostile periods of confusion and fear. I can’t tell you how much my perception has been altered or how many tears have rolled down my face. But I will most certainly try in due course.
This year, I have made considerable changes in my life, and trust me, these changes have been some of the hardest ever. At my lowest, I called the Samaritans hotline…
Being a woman who has insecurities about my body image, I truly believed that the guy I was seeing truly valued me for me. Sadly, it turns out that he only wanted my mind for my ideas, my body for his selfish pleasure and my soul to drain my essence. I had always prioritised ‘him’ as he made me believe in a twisted and fake notion that he was in need.
I felt like I had to conform into this meek version of myself, squeeze into spaces he made with selfish intent. Sometimes, I wouldn’t eat, as I thought that if I were slimmer, he would treat me better. Other times, I would overeat, feeling neglected anyway.
The past few months have taught me always to put myself first. No man is worth my sanity; no man is worth anything more than my existence and my health.
Over the coming weeks, I will share with you the traumatic experiences I’ve had this year. Equally, I will share how I’ve overcome many challenges and why my mindset is so positive now.
Yes, this post is long overdue, and I’ve been gone for ages.
Love
Unique Fatso
Unique Fatso 