February 2021
End of Month Reflections
Why is it important to reflect?
It’s important to reflect because it allows us the chance to pause and assess how things are going and if we’ve accomplished our goals.
Reflection helps us to work through areas in our lives that we feel are stagnant or personal trauma that may have been holding us back.
What were the biggest wins?
In February the biggest wins were:
- Understanding my body more and what food is best and what isn’t.
What were the biggest lessons learned/insights gained?
I found that the biggest lessons learned were that mental health is extremely important and should not be taken for granted. There were times that I had planned to meditate but either put it off for a later date/time or failed to complete the 15 minutes at all.
Other days, I did stick to my planner and meditate and I tell you, they were some of the very best days I had during February. This is why this is a lesson learned. While I know and champion daily meditation, I failed to follow my advice.
A key insight this month was the fact that although I do eat mainly healthy meals. My portions are often way off the mark. I became indulgent with eating more of the dishes I made. Such as Peppered Jack Fruit & Vegan Soup! Those dishes hit the spot for me – the odd thing is, I was fully aware that I was being greedy and I failed on all occasions to stop myself from eating more.
Reflecting now, I know I need to develop more will power. I believe the additional helpings came from the fact that I’ve just been indoors, bored out my mind and isolated. Locked down!
Which life areas were lacking and why?
The life areas I lacked were spiritual, family and friends.
I connected spiritually on an infrequent basis, I feel I avoided it because it brought up so many deep emotions. Memories from my past that have brought me so much pain – including a few traumatic experiences. These emotions form the basis for the reasons why I infrequently eat more food. (albeit healthy foods most of the time, I’m eating too much of it.)
I’ve thought about how to process these old memories that are resurfacing and infecting my days with low moods, which isn’t great when paired with UK wide COVID19 restrictions.
What tasks were not accomplished and why?
Some days were GREAT! Other days were SHITTY.
I was never consistent with my plans. Some days I felt extremely tired – I suffer from iron-deficient anaemia. Other days I struggled to push through and do what needs to be done.
February was a cold, wet month here in the UK and that added to the bouts of depression. I used it as fuel for reasons to stay indoors. Although, I knew that remaining inside was aiding the low moods.
How do I feel about my progress this month?
I feel bad about it and I don’t want it to make me feel like I can’t improve. Which I know is ridiculous, as everyone can improve!
On a scale of 1 to 10, how do I feel overall about this past month?
Yikes!
I would stay I started on a 9 and ended on a 1 – I’ve found the last week of February quite isolating. It was a dark time for me.
Thankfully, I have some amazing family and friends who have shown great support.
How will I improve next month?
I’ve decided to try to complete 3-mile walks, 4 times per week.
On the very last day of February, I pushed myself to get out and go for a walk. It was freezing outside, but I got dressed, wrapped up warm and packed a banana and a bottle of water and set out.
The first 10 minutes was so daunting! Gee, I thought about turning back and retreating to the safety of my home.
March, I’ll be marching through the city with a bottle of water and some snacks.
I’ll be mediating!
There you have it, my end of month reflections.
Live a healthy life,
Love
Unique Fatso
Unique Fatso 