For many years I avoided photos!
I’ve always felt that I was too fat, too unattractive and too unworthy to have a photo taken. And whenever I saw myself in random photos, I used to feel disgusted. ‘Like, look at you! UGLY!’
When I started buying my clothes, I always opted for dark shades, baggy fit and of course something mundane. After all, I never felt I was good enough to wear anything pretty.
I never felt I was beautiful enough to show any skin.
I never felt I was confident enough to wear red!
I was simply existing behind the shadows of the camera flash.
I had decided to make excuses to be absent from events – birthday parties, weddings and even funerals. There was this deep feeling inside me, that I did not deserve to be there. I was greedy and fat! *Only models can have super-powers
A few weeks ago, I put on two shades of lipstick by Mac – Ruby Woo and Russian Red. I pouted just as the camera counted down from 3…2…1 before taking this shot!
Lip pout – SNAP.
Here I am.
I feel most confident wearing red-lipstick!
I can’t describe it but I feel super!
I’m a few stones off of my goal weight, my stomach jiggles when I’m running and cellulite is present on my thighs. But hey! I’m wearing red lipstick and I feel wonderful.
I don’t work out every day, I’m a sucker for a bag of chips and curry sauce. Feeling guilty after consumption. Only this shade is so complimentary and I LOVE IT!
I love who I was.
I love who I am.
I love who I’m becoming.
2020 has been a year of growth, deep transformative personal growth. I’ve listened to my body and honoured the wishes of my heart.
I am Unique Fatso!
Take time to discover what your super-powers are? Embrace your mind, body and soul.
You are a key member of our universe.